'A RAY OF HOPE'
Gazing out my tiny apartment window
looking up toward the clear sky
It's been a long day
all I've done is cry.
My life to me has no meaning
other than the joy of being a mother
Love from others I cannot seem to find
It seems I'm losing my mind
In this word I'm lost
without my job, my family
all quickly vanished at my cost
Can't we turn back time
Mother teach me differently.
There comes a ray of light
falls upon my weathered face
remembering a heavenly being
full of such beauty and grace
It shines through my window
directly into my room before me
tears relentless pour down again
I wonder if this is the real me
This rare beauty looked upon me
placing her hands upon mine
she wipes the tears running down my face
A brief but real moment my world did shine
Her love for me was wondrous
showing me what I couldn't see
she lifted me up with her presence
she said that she loved me
She said to never worry
her love would always be there
she put her hand to my heart
erasing all my pain and fear
Just as quickly as she had come
She was gone from my side
I knew then in my heart
her love reaches neither far or wide
When all seemed lost to me
She lifted me up high
my eyes began to flutter
Once again robbed of a mother
While I was sleeping; I must have been
I was now back in time
1977, I was only ten
had this been a dream?
Naive and hopeful I surmised
not a dream at all, a loving memory
Quickly I remembered I was conjuring up lies
I haven;t a memory so calming
Just visions of loneliness & only me
For a moment if only in a fantasy
her protective arms comforted me
all the sadness slipped away
emptiness kept temporarily at bay
I needed her, the ray of sun
protected her as well
A shield prevented her from having to see
my tormented young years lived in Hell
Not a dream I won't lie
only a mom who did not care
my soul she killed or let die
if you wonder why
she chose the wealth & lifestyle
sacrificed her daughter all the while
a dream, i not dare
awake or asleep with her is a nightmare
I have learned that there is no guarantee of a tomorrow. It is so important to let the people you love know it and know it today for there may not be a tomorrow. As the quote goes.
...The past is just that...the past. The Future is a mystery For tomorrow is not a guarantee The present is just that ...a present...a Gift... Live in the present; make sure you never wait until tomorrow to say "I Love You" or " I am Sorry" or " I was wrong; can you ever forgive me" and most important of all " Yes, of course I forgive you"
